I Am Guilty and That Is Why I Will Always Break Under Interrogation

From the collection published in 2021, And Don’t Come Back.

I Am Guilty and That Is Why I Will Always Break Under Interrogation

…but you came up the stairs.
You remember. You screamed.
Mercy, what a racket!
And look what you made me do!

Rebuked and held responsible for
the clang-slosh of the pail hurtled down the stairs
the spray and flood of gray squeezed-out-mop water
(and there were others jolted too: I was sure I heard
the startled skitter of cockroach feet on wood floor
frantic in a rush to escape behind a baseboard)
Eventually
the entropy of the situation tired itself out.
I let the insects be. I let her voice be:

How you startled me! and this carpet
what a first-class squelchy mess
Mold problem in progress no doubt
and I think the color has run
It’s all your fault. Come here.

(Grabs my arm and pulls me.)
Tell me what’s the matter
her narrow eyes searching mine
with a suspicious look I don’t much like
Tell me
she gives vicious squeeze to my forearm
near my elbow
that I thought would leave a bruise


Tell. Me.
She says it
Very calm very quiet
very much ready to take it further.

I tell her.

6/4/20

8 thoughts on “I Am Guilty and That Is Why I Will Always Break Under Interrogation

  1. I worked with a woman whose mother would pinch her under the arm and not let go until a confession was made. She told me that she would confess everything real or imagined just to be released.

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