From the collection published in 2021, And Don’t Come Back.
I Am Guilty and That Is Why I Will Always Break Under Interrogation
…but you came up the stairs.
You remember. You screamed.
Mercy, what a racket!
And look what you made me do!
Rebuked and held responsible for
the clang-slosh of the pail hurtled down the stairs
the spray and flood of gray squeezed-out-mop water
(and there were others jolted too: I was sure I heard
the startled skitter of cockroach feet on wood floor
frantic in a rush to escape behind a baseboard)
Eventually
the entropy of the situation tired itself out.
I let the insects be. I let her voice be:
How you startled me! and this carpet
what a first-class squelchy mess
Mold problem in progress no doubt
and I think the color has run
It’s all your fault. Come here.
(Grabs my arm and pulls me.)
Tell me what’s the matter
her narrow eyes searching mine
with a suspicious look I don’t much like
Tell me
she gives vicious squeeze to my forearm
near my elbow
that I thought would leave a bruise
Tell. Me.
She says it
Very calm very quiet
very much ready to take it further.
I tell her.
6/4/20
Great title, and an upsetting piece.
Thank you. I’m familiar with the situation in this poem though it’s firmly in the long ago past.
I’m glad it’s in the past.
I worked with a woman whose mother would pinch her under the arm and not let go until a confession was made. She told me that she would confess everything real or imagined just to be released.
I’m familiar with a variation on that.
Oye! Sorry.
Long time ago now and I am grown up and no one is ever going to pinch me again! and I never will let anyone say that pinching someone is harmless, though people seem to think so.
What people think compared to the reality of the situation are universes apart.