From And Don’t Come Back, 2021.
It’s an Improvement
Maybe someday
is what I said but I meant
Never
and I don’t know
why I couldn’t make myself say
No
although this time
at least I didn’t say
Sure I’ll get right on it
1/16/20
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Claudia McGill Writes Poetry, Did You Know That? 
I think this is something we have discussed before, that way we evolve over time to be more assertive and a bit less people-pleasing. I think the less free time I have in my life, the more I am determined to preserve my time for the things that matter to me and not allow nibbles and chunks to be taken out of that precious time by committing to things I am at best lukewarm about.
Yes, it’s hard to say no when you have always said yes, but I’m also tired of finding myself in situations where I don’t want to be, so no is a good word these days.
I am actually less of a people pleaser and more of a problem solver. When someone presents me with a problem they are having, therefore, it is all too easy for me to get sucked into helping them find a solution. I have gotten so much better at only taking on what I can actually handle or want to handle and saying no to the rest.
My children always told me maybe meant no. But every once in awhile it didn’t.
But in a larger context, it’s often hard to put yourself first, and maybe is a way to hope you can just walk away and forget about it without confronting that need head on. (K)
Or hopefully not gettingeveryone mad at you while not doing something you don’t want to.
We are slaves to approval too often.